Ramblinz of a Confoozeld Dreamer

Jeweasle

 Well it sure is one of those days today, dark and rainy. I've gotten so use to these really nice summer like days with highs of 24^oc and then Autumn desides to hit today.. lol the 7th of October. Nice eh? hehe Atleast there's no snow yet, I'm hopeing that doesn't hit till after Halloween.

 I have some puter plans for myself this weekend, I plan on trying to get some templates made up for photos I want on DA I want to make some more for cafepress as well, I just don't have enough prints or products available. It's great that DA finally made templates for the prints cause it was a bitch to figure out in the first place.. lol But I did manage to figure it out and get some up. I find myself getting excited again to post my photos, maybe it's cause I haven't updated with anything new or not even new in months, I've just not foudn the spunk in my to want to post anything, nor finish up any dolls I've started. Not to say I haven't worked on anything at all, I just haven't made any decent progress doing so.. lmao Lets just hope I can this weekend.  

Jeweasle

 Well I'm still here with Tabby.. And probably will be for some time. I don't know when my blog will be back but I sure as hell am missing it.

 I feel alot better today, after the lil episode I had yesterday..I haven't blacked out like that in over 10 years, the ones since then I've managed to gain some composure before blacking out. But yesterdays lil outting freaked me out. One minute I'm in pain with my stomache and the next I'm on the floor waking to Jennah calling me asking if I was ok. When I woke I was so confused, I could hear Jay calling "what was that Jennah?" I tasted blood in my mouth and realized I was on the floor. As I was getting up, Jennah went running to tell Jay what happened. I went straight to our room to lay on the bed. My mouth and head hurt, I just needed to gather myself. The whole night after I felt weak and not really myself.. But today I'm much better.. I just hope I don't have another one of those, and specially not in front of Jennah again.. That was horrible for her to see.. I can't even begint to imagine what the poor lil thing was feeling seeing me go down like that.

On other news.. I'm going to be a great aunt..  I'm still having a hard time swallowing that one.. But yes, my oldest niece who is 17 is pregnant. WOW Is all I have to say.. Why is it that we have to get older along with them eh?

Jeweasle

   Ughh I can't fucking stnad being strung along.. I've been so patient with Jay lately. I've kept up my end of the relationship by keeping up on the house, going to school, had to miss school 3 days one week just so he could go and get a car ready for the road for when he gets his licence back. And what does he do? Takes his sweet ass time with shit. He's still getting this fucking thing together with a friend who is suppose to know alot about vehicles. But he's got a drinking problem where his friend will spend most of the day drinking and then a part of the day actually working on the car.  Today at about 2pm he gets a call from his friend and he had to go put the fenders on the jimmy, and then bring it home and park it till he gets it on the road. BUT that was hours upon hours ago, so once again our plans are thrown out the window, we're not going for dinner now, and I've spent a better part of my afternoon washing up three loads of laundry to take to dry at his mothers house. Now that it's almost 8pm I wont be drying anything. I had school tomorrow as well as tuesday and wednesday this week, but missed because the first two days of my period are a bitch But now tomorrow I wont have any dry clothes. Joy eh? Fuck men piss me off royally.

 So now I'm in a pissy mood. He takes his sweet ass time and expects me to now just up and run over to his mothers and meet him there when his cousin is here with his kids and the last time that happened when we weren't home something went missing and thats not about to happen again.. I can't stand alot of shit in my life lately. Living here for one is getting to me.

Jeweasle

url threw littlesistersplace.com is down so her site is too. Boo hoo I hope Jo
comes back soon. I miss her greatly, and miss me blogging also.
Back to class, it's alright I've gotten a good portion completed in my
grammer/vocabulary but still working ALOT on my math. Bleghh word
problems suck ass...lol I've always hated math, the mind goes  to a blank when numbers are thrown at me. Grr.. I wish school didn't resume until September when the kids go back.

But sadly it doesn't and I'm stuck with only a months summer vacation.. It's not so bad that I only go to class three days a week for 2 1/2 hours.. And I do most of my work and studying at home, and research what I need online which has been very helpful.. Been looking about as well for a photography course to take ontop of the GED, but I need to be able to do it at home online or correspondence because of school already, and Jennah being in school fulltime this year.

Looks like I'll be using Tabby again for a short while I guess..

~HuGz~

Jewelz. <3